Category: Thoughts
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A Manhattan
I’m not sure why we never got the cherry’s used for our favorite Manhattan served at our favorite restaurant…Today I found them, candied cherry’s made by a company founded in 1821. I don’t have the makings for a manhattan… but all of a sudden I’m seeing that it’s the ingredients and not the Alcohol that…
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Cancer on wheels…
My doctor described my polyp as an express bus about to go local…a long progression to the next express stop – cancer. They caught it in time – funny to think of my gastro as a bus driver taking tokens and opening the back doors with a hydraulic “ppppssssssss” to let me off… who was…
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Awake & Cold
Autumn’s color’s vanished in two days. The colors that calmed me have given way to gashes of tree limbs against a stark blue sky. It amazed me how it all flips like a light switch… I’ve seen 61 of them… I read this – before washing my face and dressing. ”Truth is a circle….Truth fears…
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Pressure Blood
So here I sit. The chitter chatter of family holiday talk – echos around my house… lonely and alone – missing you – missing us. Melancholy has overcome me… tears are welling soon to drip down my cheeks. Why oh why did I answer the phone when I saw it was Mary Ellen. Happy in…
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Coffee Cake & a Walk
We never were big on holidays, you and I.After our 5th year together we started to keep it simple. A nice meal, candles lit, late afternoon, A walk before food prep and then a movie at night…. You made everything special, the table setting, food placement, drinks made, even appetizers. All thought and planned out…
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Saturday Night is Alright…
I’m dressed in your clothes, wearing your jewelry, our wedding rings but still time is standing still… How many movies can I watch – how many glasses of wine as I sit alone… eating my meal alone… taking the time to feed myself with a real meal…all I have is two cats and a dog..…
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unworkable
Honey, I took apart your basement studio. It sat motionless for almost 2 years – collages mid paste, paintings almost completed and some with just your base blast of universal color and deep spacial discrepancies… Sand, bits of glitter, glass, hardened paint chips, glue forms, nuts, bolts, broken jewelry, sticks, unused brushes and a list…
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Sea & Pill
I got up early and went to Sandyhook. It was lovely – I started walking at 7:40 and got back to the car at 9:15 am – I found a piece of green glass, stripped naked and swam in the cool water, noticed the remains of jelly fish a sure sign of August at the…
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Meds..
I swear drs fool around with the human body as if there are shaking sticks and rolling stone with meds… three days into this medication and I’m dizzy, numb and I can’t concentrate… I main gain weight, I might loose any sexual drive. Not that I HAVE any to loose. But this Waking up on…
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When Are You Coming to See Me?
Liz called. She didn’t remember I had been there for 10 days. She has no idea of the wreck that was left of me for the past week and a half because of it. She was clearly shaken over the phone… “This has never happened to me…” She was overwhelmed. And I went into care…